Careers IV
Last Friday, I completed my first month of work, which I secretly (and collaterally) celebrated at Hon’s restaurant together with my colleagues. Unlike my other work before, the adjustment period is taking longer than it should. There isn’t much that comes to mind, really, but every morning–before coming to work– I would always think, “How can I do better today?” At first, it sounded like a desperate cry of a sorry new hire. Days turned to weeks, I still ask the same question but this time it’s close to becoming my mantra. I am convinced that the earlier I commit my mistakes, the sooner I learn and hopefully give a shot at success.
The disarming experience of adopting new work practice and standard heightens my constant need for affirmation. It’s not something like I getting the usual pat on the back at the end the day—as I now realized that my work before involved a bigger audience who would applaud at my “public speaking”, which I call work. Right now, I only have audience who can be my coach and my executioner.
To be continued…
